Everything You've Ever Dreamed

"Everything You've Ever Dreamed" is a song composed by Shiro Sagisu, with vocals by Arianne. The original lyrics were written by Hideaki Anno and later adapted to English by Mike Wyzgowski for End of Evangelion, like Komm, süsser Tod. It was recorded along with KSD, but ultimately not used. According to some EoE drafts, an unspecified song was planned to play after the movie's last scene for the credits, probably this one.

Eventually, the song was released in the S² Works box set, as the final track of Disc 6, listed in the tracklist under the codename "M-11". KSD was codenamed M-10. It was later re-released as part of the Refrain of Evangelion compilation. The Refrain booklet describes it as "This CD concludes with this phantom song that we once planned to use as “one other possibility” along with Track 25. [KSD]."

Anno's Original Verse
Original Japanese Lyrics: Hideaki ANNO Transliteration & Translation: Rachel CLARK

English Translation
Everything You've Ever Dreamed

CHORUS: What did you do to that girl?

CHORUS: What did you want to do to her?

I wanted to kiss her.

But I was hurt.

She brought pain to my heart.

Even so,

I hurt that girl's heart, as well.

I inflicted the greatest hurt upon her.

I hurt her with kindness.

CHORUS: Did hurting her bring you sorrow?

CHORUS: Did hurting her bring you pain?

No.

Hurting her gave me pleasure.

Hurting her gave me delight.

Because she wouldn't accept me.

I don't even accept myself.

I haven't since I felt the pain in my heart.

CHORUS: If that's so, why do you live?

If only I would die.

CHORUS: Die. Die. Die. Die.

Why am I still living?

Because I'm still alive.

But that girl hasn't met me.

I want to meet her, but I don't.

The strength to meet her isn't there.

I've been hurt more often than I hurt others, but I'm not accepted.

This is my punishment.

Death will not become my redemption.

For the sake of my redemption, I live.

CHORUS: You go on living, but you don't care.

CHORUS: Selfishly, you go on living, but you don't care.

But how do you intend to make up for everything?

...I don't understand.

Translator's Notes
This translation is somewhat dated and needs a good look-over.

Romaji
Everything You've Ever Dreamed

Ano ko ni nani o shita? (KÔRASU)

Ano ko ni nani o shitakatta? (KÔRASU)

Ano ko ni KISU o shitakatta.

Demo, tsukete no wa KIZU.

Boku no kokoro wa, KIZU tsuita.

Demo,

Ano ko no kokoro ni mo, KIZU o tsuketa.

Motto ooki na KIZU o tsuketa.

Yasashisa ga, ano ko ni kizu o tsuketa.

Kizu tsukete, kanashikatta? (KÔRASU)

Kizu tsukete, kurushikatta? (KÔRASU)

Chigau.

Kizu tsukete, ureshikatta.

Kizu tsukete, tanoshikatta.

Dakara, ano ko wa boku o yurusanai.

Boku mo boku o yurusanai.

Kokoro no itami o shitta kara.

Dattara, naze, ikiteru no? (KÔRASU)

Shineba ii noni.

Shine. Shine. Shine. Shine. (KÔRASU)

Naze mada, ikiteru no?

Boku wa mada, ikite iru kara.

Tada, ano ko ni wa aenai.

Aitai kedo, awanai.

Au dake no chikara ga, boku ni wa nai.

Kizu tsuketa boku wa, motto kizu tsukanakute wa, yurusenai.

Kore wa boku no BATSU.

Shi wa, tsugunai ni wa naranai.

Tsugunai no tame ni, ikite iru.

Ikite iku no wa, kamawanai. (KÔRASU)

Katte ni, ikite iku no wa, kamawanai. (KÔRASU)

Demo, dou tsugunau tsumori na no?

...wakaranai.

Original Japanese Lyrics
Everything you've ever dreamed

あの子に何をした？(コーラス)

あの子に何をしたかった？(コーラス)

あの子にキスをしたかった.

でも、つけたのはキズ.

僕の心は、キズついた.

でも、

あの子の心にも、キズをつけた.

もっと大きなキズをつけた.

優しさが、あの子に傷をつけた.

傷つけて、悲しかった？(コーラス)

傷つけて、苦しかった？(コーラス)

ちがう.

傷つけて、うれしかった.

傷つけて、たのしかった.

だから、あの子は僕を許さない.

僕も僕を許さない.

心の痛みを知ったから.

だったら、何故、生きてるの？(コーラス)

死ねばいいのに.

死ね. 死ね. 死ね. 死ね. (コーラス)

何故まだ、生きてるの？

僕はまだ、生きているから.

ただ、あの子には会えない.

会いたいけど、会わない.

会うだけの力が、僕にはない.

傷つけた僕は、もっと傷つかなくては、許せない.

これは僕のバツ.

死は、償いにはならない.

償いのために、生きている.

生きているのは、かまわない. （コーラス）

勝手に、生きていくのは、かまわない. （コーラス）

でも、どう償うつもりなの？

...わからない.

(日本語原詞:庵野秀明)

Mike Wyzgowski's English Lyrics Adaption
Everything You've Ever Dreamed

What was it she did to break your heart

Betray your heart and everything

Kiss you with a kiss that wasn't true

It wasn't you at all

Hide behind a painted smile, did you know that

You would live a lie or two

Pull the very ground from under you

And leave you nowhere else to run


 * You can sail the seven seas and find

Love is a place you'll never see

Passing you like a summer breeze

You feel life has no other reason to be

You can wait a million years and find

That heavens too far away from you

Love's just a thing others do

What is love

Til it comes home to you

Did she promise you the world and did that

Girl just throw your love away

Leave you like a lonely solitaire

With just despair for company

Do you think you'd find revenge so sweet

Make it so you hearts will never beat

Squeeze the very last and dying breath from

Everything you've ever dreamed


 * Repeat


 * Repeat

Analysis

 * The lyrics of Everything You've Ever Dreamed (both Anno's original lyrics as well as the English adaption) seem to be about the relationship between Shinji Ikari and Asuka Langley Soryu.

Everything You've Ever Dreamed